november update

Sunday, November 22, 2015

hello friends and family!! How is everyone doing?? *loud scream from the crowd as if we were at a Justin Bieber concert* (I AM SO FUNNY, LAUGH AT ME PLEASE)

Okay, I have a few awesome updates for you all!! This definitely won't take super long so here we go!!

  • I am officially an ambassador for The Elephant Pants!! I already posted a little something about them this month, but you will definitely be seeing more and more of them on here and my other social media! 
  • I am going to be changing my url, in January! I thought I was in desperate need of a change and I am just trying to brand myself in a way that I want to be branded. I am so looking forward to that change as well as other.
  • I got Justin Bieber concert tickets!! I just had to tell everyone in the world so I thought I'd do that here lol! 
  • I still have a poetry book for sale, and I am trying to pay for college and such. So if you like poetry, I would really appreciate it if you checked out my book! 
  • I put up Christmas decorations, even though I said I wouldn't do so until after Thanksgiving. I was just in the spirit, I am sorry.
  • I am now 18! I am officially no longer a minor (wait, am I a major now?!?) Happy Birthday to me!!
  • I have a job now so that is why I haven't been posting a ton!! I would say I promise to post more, but I don't know what is going to happen, sorry! 
Okay there are my wonderful updates! Thanks for reading fam!! 

xoxo, Aubs

excerpt from my journal no. 3

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

In honor NaNoWrMo, I decided to finally post another journal excerpt! This journal excerpt clearing explores what has been going through my mind lately. As many of my friends and a few of you know, I lost my Nonni to cancer 2 years ago in January. I struggle with the grief everyday of my life and I really just needed to get this out in the open. I hope you enjoy this excerpt and I hope that everyone continues to write this month!

I am sick and tired of the cancer game, that is merely what it is; a game. This game is 4 quarters long (on the other hand we could say it was 4 years). You watch from the bench as your team and cancer each score goals, each winning at different times in the game. But cancer is strong and hell of a lot better at fighting. You sit on the bench, kicking and screaming, as you watch cancer tear your team to shreds. Cancer doesn't give up. 

1st quarter, your team is winning, but is still unable to walk without a walker.

 2nd quarter, cancer is kicking ass and you keep begging to be put in, you want to help fight; it’s not your turn yet. Cancer is winning. 

3rd quarter is a race against time, the teams are tied, but you know was is going to happen, but no one wants to say it; you’ve already lost the game. 

4th quarter, the game might as well be over. Everyone has stopped cheering, they’ve lost all hope, but you continue to scream because you won’t be able to come back from this season. 

10 minutes left; the team has pretty much stopped playing; treatment is stopped. You still think your team will win, because they’ve pulled through before, right? 

5 minutes left; 1 month. You hold tight to your team, you cannot stop holding tight. You know the ending, but no one will say it still. You cherish every blank stare and gibberish speech. You take in exactly how she says your name and the was she holds her spoon. The game is coming to an end. 

10 seconds left. It’s getting harder, the field is dark and slippery, you cannot see what is right in front of you.

5 seconds left; 3 days. You hold your teammate (cousin) as she sobs on the bench. You make do.

3 seconds left; 2 days. A time where you should be celebrating, you continue to look deeper within for some sort of answer from God, but you’re so full of doubt and despair that you cannot seem to find him within the mess.

1 second left; 1 day. You call your mom to tell her about the game and how you cannot see a thing, but she is watching closer than you.  You ask how the player is doing and she tells you it’s almost over. You find yourself praying for the end to come sooner, now maybe; but you can’t seem to imagine life without the game.

0 seconds left; the end. You stop, but the world around you keeps going. You’re broken inside, but you can barely keep it hidden. You walk out with a smile, that everyone can see through. You’re not going to be okay for awhile. Your Nonni, she’s gone.

You go to the recognition ceremony (funeral) and hold your cousin’s hand while others talk about the greatest player of all time, but you cannot seem to find the strength inside you to stand up and share how you found God again and how your Nonni is to thank, because oh how awful it sounds to thank someone for having cancer and breaking you. You cling to your seat for days, wishing that things would change, but they don’t.

You will have more seasons; better ones and worse ones too, you will get through them too. 

hey yoga girl

Friday, November 13, 2015

Hi guys! Today, I had the pleasuring of photographing a new friend. I cannot wait to share them with you! I also got to do some yoga in my backyard woo!

The Elephant Pants are my new friend and would love to be yours too. These pants are beautiful and super comfortable. I wear them to school, work, and I even wear them when I'm doing yoga! Other than being adorable and comfy, these pants support a cause that is dear to my heart. They donate $1-$4 from every item sold to the African Wildlife Foundation, which fights to keep poachers out of parks. The rangers from AWF fight hard for the animals that many people so dearly love; they need help when it comes to suppling proper equipment and shelters. Help fight poaching by purchasing a pair of Elephant Pants! You will not regret it! Check out their website here, and their gorgeous instagram. 

Pieces featured:
1. Bandoola Maroon Harem Pants

I hope you love these pants as much as I do!

Sorry for making this super short, I have just been so busy lately and I haven't had much time lately! I'll post a catch up post soon!

Love always, Aubrey

autumn's breeze

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

hello sweet fairies! Today, my friends and I went in the woods and did a little photoshoot. I was originally going to make this post my fall lookbook, but I think I am going to wait until December to do a lookbook. Plus, I'm pretty sure you've already seen all my fall clothes.

I absolutely love the woods by my house, it is my favorite place to go in the boring city I live in, I could spent a whole day there. Amanda, Lauren, and I were definitely rocking the 70 degree weather we are having! Here are those photos from our shoot today, enjoy!

our mixtape cover 

My friends are the cutest little things ever, I honestly don't have a clue what I would do without them! I am going to miss them next fall, when we all go off to different schools; but we will all find time to be together and explore the beautiful world we live in. 

I can't wait for more adventures with these losers! I love my friends so much! See you soon!

xoxo, Aubs